2 years ago I made it point to start my day with gratitude. Even on the hard days, even on the sleepless days, even on the days where I have had weeks of tears, where I'm walking into each day without knowing what is in front on me because things in life just feel so dang hard at that time.
Guess what - it has transformed me. I thank God for the hurts, and the hard, and the roadblocks and the mountain I am climbing or the disappointments and I allow Him to work through those days and try not to worry.
Funny enough this post is more about Max’s 5th birthday than anything else. But you see if I would not have broken free of the chains of shame this email would not have been written.
If I’m going to brutally honest Max was 99.9% never going to happen. I never envisioned a life with another child. After 4 years I was finally getting in the groove of having my one kid. Kaiya was finally “easy.” I never for a second imagined Max would be in my life…which means Eve was literally just a big ole surprise!
Have you ever had days where you just want to cry? You know, the days where the lump in your throat is there – all. day. long!
Those days where you question the why, the how, your every step?
Today is one of those days! But you see I wont allow the tears to flow. When I’m certain that when I allow the ugly ass cry to happen I’ll feel so much better.
I sent a text to my life coach – you’ve all heard me talk about her. The woman that has many times overheard me ugly cry on the other end of a phone very early in the morning.
I asked “reasons why I would be emotional today. Like I could cry at the drop of a hat?” Her response – like it ALWAYS is was comforting and reassuring and even “duuuude I feel the same way!” (ok Cynda does not say dude – but you know I have my own inner dialogue about how people would reply to me if they were actually speaking to me – marcyisms for sure).
I still haven’t cry. Why because I have no idea why I want to cry in the first place. Dumb, right? I’m the type that needs that reason. When in reality maybe you just need to freaking cry. It’s ok to want to cry and feel raw and feel a lump in your throat and just want to have a fun ugly cryfest party with yourself without having a reason.
So today ladies, I’m giving you ALL permission to not have a reason for the cry and just freaking do it already. Maybe you want to cry because life is so flipping good right now you just want to ugly cry about it….maybe life is such a flipping mess your kids are driving you crazy and you want to ugly cry about it – do it.
Point is – just do it. No explanation, no reason, no right time. The soul heals through tears.
Now, for me…I’m going to try and find space today to journal and reflect and cry. Because sometimes we just need to take our own flipping advice.
*And if you're in need of a Cynda in your life...you know someone that will help you out of a pit when you don't see an end in sight...I would click the picture above. She has no idea I'm doing this...so if she gets inundated with calls don't tell her I sent you :) !
I want to know, have you EVER had days like these? Reply to this email and let me know how you got through it!
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Check out the full article below.
(read the full story by clicking here. 📷 cred: bustle.com)
What are your thoughts? Do you enjoy shopping for undies?
I've realized my life has been a bit out of whack lately. When taking a deep assessment of why that could be I came to the realization I wasn't putting Jesus first in my mornings. Having a relatively "new" baby makes waking up before anyone else a little difficult considering night feedings have the tendency to rev-up my thoughts and I have a hard time going to sleep!
During one of those late-night feedings I came across this awesome to-do list! I found it got me back into reading my Bible. Praying more often and give God the very first of my mornings!
(For more cool to-do list head on over to www.biblelovenotes.blogspot.com)
What do your mornings look like? I would love to hear about your routines.
Today I realized, after starting my morning off on a not-so-perfect note, I prayed as I was driving to studio that God would give me peace in the midst of life's chaos. I found myself, shortly after getting in my car, in a room filled with amazing women, that were enjoying their Saturday morning and were happy to spend some time not only shopping but mostly with each other. And it put into perspective how much we need our “squad” and how community with others truly brings the best out of us.
Thank you for blessing me with your love and support. You are all blessings to me and I thank you for sticking around this crazy rollercoaster ride that this last year has been.
I pray you all have an amazing fun filled weekend.